It's been a while! Almost two months to be exact! But believe me I do have my reasons! And I will explain things, little by little as I go through this post because believe me I do have a lot to tell.

Things have been moving ridiculously fast lately and there's been a lot of stress. And as much as it actually pains me to say it, I've had to leave Japan and return home to Sweden. The reason being that I became sick (Still am) and couldn't stay. With expensive hospital bills and the inability to do much because of dizziness and fatigue (being feeble 24/7 is a real pain in the ass I tell you) it felt as a better choice to go back home to Sweden where I can get proper medical treatment without having to sell my mortal soul to pay for it. Plus that the doctors here speak my native language and it's easier for me to communicate. Trying to explain your symptoms to a Japanese doctor who barely speaks English has been one of the most difficult experiences I've had, although I managed to get my point across. I think. I've booked another appointment here in Sweden now, and I'll visit the doctor again on Thursday to get myself checked and see if they can find something. The issues I have right now is chest pains and palpitations, sometimes pains in other parts of my body and also now quite a lot of fatigue and feebleness. I had about two or three weeks where I actually felt quite alright but I've fallen back into this odd illness and since I don't know what it is, checking it out seems like the better option . As much as I worry about this, I really hope I can get some answers. The suspicions both me and my family and friends have is of course anxieties. Since it can cause similar symptoms and it would make sense, considering the huge transitions I've had to make recently. But enough about the bad things, let's talk about all the good things I've done recently!

Aside from going home and being sad about leaving Japan, the joy I felt when I saw my parents at the airport after arriving was really really striking. I literally started crying the moment I spotted the top of my dad's head and it made me realize how much I had missed them and how much I had missed being home. Sure I love Japan, I loved living there and I miss it so much it really makes me sad sometimes, there's nothing quite like being home with your family and having your parents at arms reach and only a phone call away.

I've had the opportunity to meet up with almost my entire family in just two short weeks (It's exactly two weeks since I returned home today haha!) and it has made me happy to get to see everyone again and to know they're all doing well. I've missed them dearly and talking to them also makes me really happy.

The last month or so in Japan was really difficult for me, dealing with both stress and then troubles between me and a few friends made it a bit harder for me to get by than I would have wanted it to. And getting back here to where I know I have friends I've known for years feels like such a great safety. I miss Keynda, Emelie, Sharii and Lucie a lot and I miss the way we used to go out together and do things and how easy it was to just grab a coffee or something of the like after school. It was great in comparison to how things are now, when I'm just sitting at home applying for jobs without any money to do anything. It makes my everyday life feel a bit grey, but I'm working on making it better and as always, I am hoping for the best! Of course!

That's it for this post, and I want to thank my readers who've stuck by me!

Much love! ♡